Sunday, April 14, 201312:48 AM
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I hate going out with couples.
When you see them all lovey dovey, you start to think: where's mine?
Although you might feel happy for the couple, but when you see the girlf so happy with the boyf's effort, you still tend to think where's mine?
What am I lacking? Why are you not giving me a chance? What should I do?
And when I say I should stop talking, Celia, please do what you mean to. Just, stop talking. When I want to talk, no one listens. When they do, either I say the wrong thing and make someone upset or I am just saying something stupid to them. So Celia, really. Just stop talking. You survived not talking to anyone for 12 years, you can do the same still.
When can I stop making mistakes? When something is entrusted to me, yet I can't do it well. Celia, what can you do well? What?
I really lost count how many times I cried this year, lost count of how many times I used my tears to wash my face to sleep.
I really dk why can't I be like any other people, all smart and full of common sense. Where's mine? Why am I born stupid? Why?
We used to be so close, going out together, studying together, going to school together. Now it's all different. You moved on. Me too, but.. I've so many things I want to tell you but it's ain't appropriate anymore.
What am I living for? I am just....feeding myself and looking forward to the day I die. I am better off dead, isn't it?
I really dk what to do when Sungmin really enlist to the army. He's my only endorphin. I just can't.......... and what if my grandma leaves me? Since I was 5, I've been thinking about this and all I can do is cry. I really cannot do without my grandma. She's more important to me, even more than my parents.
Why the fuck am I so weak? Why?
When you see them all lovey dovey, you start to think: where's mine?
Although you might feel happy for the couple, but when you see the girlf so happy with the boyf's effort, you still tend to think where's mine?
What am I lacking? Why are you not giving me a chance? What should I do?
And when I say I should stop talking, Celia, please do what you mean to. Just, stop talking. When I want to talk, no one listens. When they do, either I say the wrong thing and make someone upset or I am just saying something stupid to them. So Celia, really. Just stop talking. You survived not talking to anyone for 12 years, you can do the same still.
When can I stop making mistakes? When something is entrusted to me, yet I can't do it well. Celia, what can you do well? What?
I really lost count how many times I cried this year, lost count of how many times I used my tears to wash my face to sleep.
I really dk why can't I be like any other people, all smart and full of common sense. Where's mine? Why am I born stupid? Why?
We used to be so close, going out together, studying together, going to school together. Now it's all different. You moved on. Me too, but.. I've so many things I want to tell you but it's ain't appropriate anymore.
What am I living for? I am just....feeding myself and looking forward to the day I die. I am better off dead, isn't it?
I really dk what to do when Sungmin really enlist to the army. He's my only endorphin. I just can't.......... and what if my grandma leaves me? Since I was 5, I've been thinking about this and all I can do is cry. I really cannot do without my grandma. She's more important to me, even more than my parents.
Why the fuck am I so weak? Why?
