Friday, January 20, 20122:41 AM
■ Misunderstandings
I guess when something /terrible/ happens to you & you duno why it happened, its a futile attempt to try and think through the whole situation to figure out why. Because you already have no clue to where to pinpoint the problem to! But when this similar situation happens on someone else & you watch the whole saga as a bystander point of view, bits & pieces starts to piece themselves together.
At first I was just being #kpo, I went to read through the whole longass story from person B and I jumped into conclusion that person A was at fault - like she delibrately said all those stuff to put person B down. And then I saw person A was trying to defend herself, and I thought those were just excuses until person C said that person A was just being insensitive & duno when to not say what.
That's it. Insensitive & Lack of EQ. That was the root of the problem.
But what really happened between us were beyond insensitivity & the lack of EQ. It was how we dealt with our emotions. You like Z, I like Z too - but not the same way as you did. That was the truth all along. It was insensitivity on my part to conveniently forget that you will get jealous considering how you felt towards Z. I shouldn't have thought 'I really don't like him the way you did, so I can just continue what I'm doing because 我問心無愧' Because ultimately, it just gives a wrong impression anyway.
I admit that, at that point of time - I really didn't know my feelings either. It was all so confusing and misleading, within myself. I was sure I didnt like Z that way, but at the same time I felt so........attracted towards Z. It was later on that I realised it was just 崇拜.
I guess it was better for us to be on separate ways as I /don't/ think we will be able to avoid any misunderstandings between us. 八字不和.
Finally figured what happen, it had been almost a year since what happened - I really applaud my perseverance.
Feel so much better now, & I don't hate anymore. :)
At first I was just being #kpo, I went to read through the whole longass story from person B and I jumped into conclusion that person A was at fault - like she delibrately said all those stuff to put person B down. And then I saw person A was trying to defend herself, and I thought those were just excuses until person C said that person A was just being insensitive & duno when to not say what.
That's it. Insensitive & Lack of EQ. That was the root of the problem.
But what really happened between us were beyond insensitivity & the lack of EQ. It was how we dealt with our emotions. You like Z, I like Z too - but not the same way as you did. That was the truth all along. It was insensitivity on my part to conveniently forget that you will get jealous considering how you felt towards Z. I shouldn't have thought 'I really don't like him the way you did, so I can just continue what I'm doing because 我問心無愧' Because ultimately, it just gives a wrong impression anyway.
I admit that, at that point of time - I really didn't know my feelings either. It was all so confusing and misleading, within myself. I was sure I didnt like Z that way, but at the same time I felt so........attracted towards Z. It was later on that I realised it was just 崇拜.
I guess it was better for us to be on separate ways as I /don't/ think we will be able to avoid any misunderstandings between us. 八字不和.
Finally figured what happen, it had been almost a year since what happened - I really applaud my perseverance.
Feel so much better now, & I don't hate anymore. :)
