Wednesday, December 31, 200812:37 AM
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just had a 1hr heart to heart talk with cherie jus now,
and i really felt disheartened.
was closed to tears,
but dint want to break down.
maybe it's just one of my moodswings,
but i really spoke how i really felt.
every single thing.
girls.what do they really want?
its really very simple,
and not as complicated as it seemed to be.
reassurance,from the bottom of the heart.
there were actually many things that made us think of these much things.
and sometimes,
i hope i wont think so much.
多於的想法.
不如,走一步算一步?
i wish,i really do.
but i cant do it.
because:
1) i cant help but to start worrying for my results already.
i could just wait till that day,then worry.
but i cant.it matters too much to me.
stress,pressure.inevitable.
in my family,i'm to be the stupidest.
even in my gan-family,
im the one with the most horrendous results.
sigh,why huh?
why can't i be as knowledgable as them?
2) i take this r/ship seriously.
i really do wan to spend the rest of my life with you,panda.
too early to say this,perhaps.
but thats how i really feel,right now.
u said before,no matter how deep a love is,
it will fade one day.
i cant assure u that it will not happen,
but i can assure u that this feeling for u,will last long definitely.
argh,my bad habit is back.
this isn't....good:/
and i really felt disheartened.
was closed to tears,
but dint want to break down.
maybe it's just one of my moodswings,
but i really spoke how i really felt.
every single thing.
girls.what do they really want?
its really very simple,
and not as complicated as it seemed to be.
reassurance,from the bottom of the heart.
there were actually many things that made us think of these much things.
and sometimes,
i hope i wont think so much.
多於的想法.
不如,走一步算一步?
i wish,i really do.
but i cant do it.
because:
1) i cant help but to start worrying for my results already.
i could just wait till that day,then worry.
but i cant.it matters too much to me.
stress,pressure.inevitable.
in my family,i'm to be the stupidest.
even in my gan-family,
im the one with the most horrendous results.
sigh,why huh?
why can't i be as knowledgable as them?
2) i take this r/ship seriously.
i really do wan to spend the rest of my life with you,panda.
too early to say this,perhaps.
but thats how i really feel,right now.
u said before,no matter how deep a love is,
it will fade one day.
i cant assure u that it will not happen,
but i can assure u that this feeling for u,will last long definitely.
argh,my bad habit is back.
this isn't....good:/
