Friday, May 2, 20081:33 PM
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a sleepless night for me yesterday.
felt like a zombie today.
thought through so much stuffes yesterday,
and i couldn't help but... let my emotions flow.
thought about my rash decision,
but then again, i made that decision because i felt touched.
i still deemed it as rash though.
a scar was left behind.
time heals wound, but not this one, i guess.
i felt stupid, and i felt naive.
i knew clearly love wasnt everything,
but i still gave my all.
what i had in return?
this scar. and guiltyness.
i once told A, that setbacks help strengthen a person.
and that we learn from past mistakes,¬ to regret.
easier said then done.
celia is actually a simple girl.
dont make her sophisticated.
all she wants is a positive mindset towards life.
life includes studies, friends, relationships, and many other stuffes.
she wants to press on and work hard for the last 5months.
she wants to control her temper,
and treasure all her friends before she graduate.
she wants to have the same confidence back for a relationship.
she wants to not anger her parents anymore, but treat them with respect.
it seems so easy, but not actually.
yes, i do agree that i may keep to myself sometimes.
(*and it made u think that im complicated and "mysterious")
i did it because i dowan u to worry.
through the first, i learnt not to be dependent on any guys.
u can say that i dont trust u,
because i feel that way too.
truth hurts, i know.
then i wonder,
how did i get over it so quickly?
because i was not overly dependent on u.
many people (*okay not many, only 3) whom i know, have relationship problem.
one gave it up, but regretted it.
cared to much about her pride, hence felt very hurt.
another one gave it up, because of her dumbdumb teachers.
(*i felt that the decision was stupid though)
the last one, which hurt me most too.. was left with a deep scar.
think that he is her everything, but actually not.
he might be, but ultimately.. what is the thing u REALLY want to achieve?
just him, or a stable career.
to have a stable career, studies is definitely of utmost importance now.
yet u said something which really pains me.
"nonono!!!!!!! he's more impt"
you're actually hinting indirectly that u're giving up ur studies for him.
so all you past effort were wasted then?
please know what you priority should be.
perhaps im too meddlesome,
but i dont what to see my bestie giving herself up!
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jiayou for the remaining papers!(:
all the best:D
felt like a zombie today.
thought through so much stuffes yesterday,
and i couldn't help but... let my emotions flow.
thought about my rash decision,
but then again, i made that decision because i felt touched.
i still deemed it as rash though.
a scar was left behind.
time heals wound, but not this one, i guess.
i felt stupid, and i felt naive.
i knew clearly love wasnt everything,
but i still gave my all.
what i had in return?
this scar. and guiltyness.
i once told A, that setbacks help strengthen a person.
and that we learn from past mistakes,¬ to regret.
easier said then done.
celia is actually a simple girl.
dont make her sophisticated.
all she wants is a positive mindset towards life.
life includes studies, friends, relationships, and many other stuffes.
she wants to press on and work hard for the last 5months.
she wants to control her temper,
and treasure all her friends before she graduate.
she wants to have the same confidence back for a relationship.
she wants to not anger her parents anymore, but treat them with respect.
it seems so easy, but not actually.
yes, i do agree that i may keep to myself sometimes.
(*and it made u think that im complicated and "mysterious")
i did it because i dowan u to worry.
through the first, i learnt not to be dependent on any guys.
u can say that i dont trust u,
because i feel that way too.
truth hurts, i know.
then i wonder,
how did i get over it so quickly?
because i was not overly dependent on u.
many people (*okay not many, only 3) whom i know, have relationship problem.
one gave it up, but regretted it.
cared to much about her pride, hence felt very hurt.
another one gave it up, because of her dumbdumb teachers.
(*i felt that the decision was stupid though)
the last one, which hurt me most too.. was left with a deep scar.
think that he is her everything, but actually not.
he might be, but ultimately.. what is the thing u REALLY want to achieve?
just him, or a stable career.
to have a stable career, studies is definitely of utmost importance now.
yet u said something which really pains me.
"nonono!!!!!!! he's more impt"
you're actually hinting indirectly that u're giving up ur studies for him.
so all you past effort were wasted then?
please know what you priority should be.
perhaps im too meddlesome,
but i dont what to see my bestie giving herself up!
----------------------------
jiayou for the remaining papers!(:
all the best:D
